A few months ago I went through my old teen diaries. Some things I can look back and laugh at now, but many times I felt like I was at the end of my rope. Life can be unkind at times-but dealing with it was very tricky for me as a youth. There's always bridges to cross, situations to mourn and it can all feel overwhelming. So the teen version of me sincerely didn't think I would make it into adulthood because of life's pains.
Some times I've been hurt or felt defeated because I thought I gave others the license to hurt me.
From "not having a specific agenda" for a role I play in their lives, to some wanting their way regardless how it affects others. Then, even when it's for the best, I've felt distressed by choices my heart has had to make. How does one deal with it all?
What I must do is remind my self that the "teen" girl knew that God had a plan and the grown up girl has to do the same. She knew that he was the answer- this life is hopeless without him and there's no other hope for her.. In the past year I've encountered circumstances that has allowed me to revisit a place of vulnerability, where it's a struggle to know who to trust, where it's safe and question what the outcome should look like. But I'm so thankful that the same Jesus of back then is the same Jesus today!
Some people can overlook the hurt they cause , because their objective is very different from yours. So they may or may not intend on hurting you, but do anyway because their minds are set on meeting their desired goal. Submit even these things to the Lord, surrender your heart and will again to his, no matter the cost. He will keep it all safe, in a place where victorious living protects them.
I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
3 He has put a new song in my mouth--
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the Lord.... (read the entire chapter, it's so good)